Monday, October 30, 2006

Another set of one-liners?

Because I haven't been articulate recently, I cannot write beautiful paragraphs describing what's been happening and how I've been feeling these past few weeks. So for now, I'll dish out another serving of one liners. Well, not as "one liner"-ish as the last post, but...you get my drift...I hope...

* I don't know why, but I feel so detached from you right now. But I honestly hope you'll be okay. Honest. Sometime, someday, we'll have that bond again, the one we had before things got...ugly. And before you started to lean on me at a time when I wasn't ready yet. When I still wanted to have fun. To be a college girl without much worries but her thesis.

* I wish you could look at me beyond the bread that I put in the table.

* Mailap pa din si closure. And I've been wanting to compose this open letter that I really, really wish could reach you. Blame it on katamaran, kapaguran, or the ever-corny "hindi pa ako ready" excuse, but here I am, still unable to pen the closure letter. Maybe next week. Next month. Next year. For now, I leave you with this song: Mata by Mojofly.

* My thoughts revolve around three Rs right now.

* It was nice, trying to break the cycle. And in some ways, I can say that I have successfully done so. Well, not as successfully as I want to - I still get kilig when I'm around the fuckable officemate (who said - or rather implied - that he has a girlfriend) and I still can't help but crush on the very much married Jofer - but the fact that I have stopped quote-unquote-falling for the attached guys and that I'm already seeing the advantage of actually quote-unquote-falling for the unattached ones is actually a good starting point. Mas masaya. Pero *ehem* old habits are hard to die. Sabihin na natin mas exciting pa din kapag ang isang tao ay hindi masyadong available. Challenge, eh. Pero *ehem uli*, one has to stop heeding to the challenge...

* Speaking of "Mas masaya"-ng unattached guys. Or guy. "Disguised" in the name of Cuteness. I love seeing him. Being around him. I don't know if you can say I'm actually falling but I think I'm getting there. Which scares me. And excites me. And I don't know. I just know that everytime I think about him, that I'm around him, I'm happy. And safe. And yuck, mushy. So I'll stop now, before I spit more mush.

* And he's been sweeter and nicer recently. I just have to be eternally prepared for those curve balls he still throws once in awhile... But let me just say that I loved how he laughed awhile ago. Dangerous.

* Okay, I've been camping out in geekland recently and I haven't been watching too much media (and by media I mean non-videogame related) and I have missed out on a lot of good stuff. Take High School Musical, for example. Been seeing this on Disney Channel for quite some time now and I read about Mika's and Ros' entries about this latest Disney Original and I know Zac Efron is love (ain't he?) but I just haven't found the time to actually sit down and watch the movie. And now I finally have. And it's just...love. Sigh. How fun it is to be a high schooler.

* I have to make another trip to Quiapo. I just have to buy It Started With A Kiss. Joe Cheng is heaven! ^__^

* I never thought wanting to help was gonna be interpreted in a wrong way. It's - I can't put a word on it, so for now I'll use depressing - depressing when people don't appreciate the help you're offering. I could put all expletives in here to express my disgust, frustration, and utter disbelief - but they will all be senseless. So, for now, I'll just lie low and mind my own business.

* I would have expected this from my friends, but not my family...

* Whoever said that birthdays are just for kids? Don't adults sometimes wish they could be the focus of their own fuckin' birthday? And I'm not talking about cakes and balloons and ice cream and the works. Just the attention. A simple, "Happy Birthday, Karen" would have sufficed. But no. Everybody went on talking about their own lives that until 7 p.m. when I said goodbye to go to work, the only people who greeted me were the little ones aged 6, 7, and 9.

* Did they even ask me if I wanted to go videoke?

* I want chocolates. And Japanese food. And a new stuffed bear.

* I just want my birthday to be happy. Not fun. Happy. Genuinely happy. I don't think it will happen, though. =(

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Monday, October 16, 2006

150 Things

And since my blog has beene silent and I still don't have time to make a post about the goings-on in my life, here's something fun nipped from Tonton's blog...

Instruction: Highlight the ones you've done.


01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped ---> I so want to!!!
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe --> someday!!!
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Posed nude in front of strangers
61. Gone scuba diving ---> Dream ko!!!
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played DVD for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Had a one-night stand ---> Sorta...*blush*
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Petted a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart ---> I hope not!
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school ---> Next year!!!
131. Parasailed
132. Petted a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad
135. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read ---> Leo Tolstoy counts, aight?
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life

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